MY Neverland
I just went to see "Finding Neverland" with Tess and Debs and decided to tell you all what my Neverland looks like.
All my siblings love me. And show it. Not just empty words. I get hugged. I'm not ignored. Everyone loves me. Everyone admires what I do, my unique passion for horses. I'm not talentless. People, family members especially, recognise my greatness with horses. I'm noticed. I don't have this strong repelling feeling towards any guy who wants me like is usually the case with someone out of my reach that comes within reach. Everyone is proud of me. No one makes fun that I love animals so much. No one raises an eyebrow or twirls a finger round their temple when I give love to My Baby or a rabbit, or a horse. I'm accepted for who I am. I feel loved. I don't feel ignored or abandoned. I feel like my older siblings now see me as an adult, and are able to (with no connection to that) pour out their love to me, even confide in me or share things with me, despite my being the younger sibling. I may be younger but my experience is no less than yours. I wish the same of all this for Aliza as well.
The pain I'm going through now is eased by the love and understanding of my siblings and those around me. ..
All my siblings love me. And show it. Not just empty words. I get hugged. I'm not ignored. Everyone loves me. Everyone admires what I do, my unique passion for horses. I'm not talentless. People, family members especially, recognise my greatness with horses. I'm noticed. I don't have this strong repelling feeling towards any guy who wants me like is usually the case with someone out of my reach that comes within reach. Everyone is proud of me. No one makes fun that I love animals so much. No one raises an eyebrow or twirls a finger round their temple when I give love to My Baby or a rabbit, or a horse. I'm accepted for who I am. I feel loved. I don't feel ignored or abandoned. I feel like my older siblings now see me as an adult, and are able to (with no connection to that) pour out their love to me, even confide in me or share things with me, despite my being the younger sibling. I may be younger but my experience is no less than yours. I wish the same of all this for Aliza as well.
The pain I'm going through now is eased by the love and understanding of my siblings and those around me. ..
posted by AMUS1 | 10:54 AM
3 Comments:
You know, there's always something worse out there. That's what they say. Your job is to make sure you can always say that. So if someone's screwing you, I can think of a lot worse words in my messed-up vocabulary. Can't you? They're there. You gotta drop the nice act and use those words. And if that doesn't work, try letting your feelings show. Ever notice how no one feels bad for you unless you cry? Anger, door slamming, being upset ... they just roll their eyes and say "There she goes again." You gotta play the emotions.
And by the way, I truly do not understand what you see in out-of-shape limbs. Do you really want to examine an arm bent at a right angle? I don't think so.
Question: Where is the copy of "A Tale of Two Cities" that you had to buy from Ash? Gotta know if you still have it, otherwise I'll have to buy a new one!
gotta play the emotions! haha. priceless. Well, here's a confidence jelly - i had my heart broken about 2 months ago. She was someone who was interested in me (we went out for a few weeks) but decided to stay with her boyfriend. (she's "k" in the pseudo poem i wrote on my blog). It was the out of reachness that drove me to obsession, i think. I also get turned off by people who are into me. Eliyahu says it has to do with the inability to accept unconditional love. Which is an interesting point considering the fact that the most successful relationship in my life right now is the most conditionally expectation-driven... what sayest thou to all of this/
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