AHHH!!!!!!

Well, I don't have finals to get me crazy, thank G-d. No I just have myself to thank for that. I hate myself, I hate who I am, I hate what I'm not, what I'm trying to be but failing. And the worst part is that it manifests itself in anger towards others who just trigger this feeling in myself. With no regard to the triggerer (is that a word?).
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Oh, and Mr. Kindness is so persistent! I feel terrible that he's just a really close friend to me when he obviously wants more, but knows it won't come and yet still persists!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!